MEN LESSON

身为男人该做的事：

-要时常问问她的事
-要懂得尊重女方
-温暖的肢体接触
-适时的嘘寒问暖
-让她的家人朋友都欣赏你
-不要忘记称赞她
-会做她爱吃的菜
-有一首专属于她的歌曲
-记得她生日并制造一些惊喜
-尽量做到胸襟开阔、宽容
-善待对方的宠物
-要有运动爱好
-让她觉得向你倾诉是安全的
-搞清楚和女性朋友的分界

Well, it's all for nothing

Haha, another day of my life, today topic will gonna be 'sad'. Well, I'm a sadist so sure the topic will always be related to sad things that happen in my life. You guy know how a sadist is produce right? Sadist is produced through the experience of having a lot sadness, sometime more than the happiness they feel. I'm the unlucky guy and today I'm gonnabe your MC and talk a little bit with you guys about me myself, a worthless loser in his life.
Reminder here, I open my talk with Haha doesn't mean I'm always happy, Haha can be a form of self pleasure word. You know me right? Of course you know, u can always see a person who rarely smile wandering around at IPGKTB like a ghost, without any odour or any attachment to the world surrounding him. Well that is me, if you cannot get a clear picture about me, go facebook and add Titania Erza, that's my fb account name.
Since when I become like this? the story started one year ago. At that time, i still remember I just enrolled into IPGKTB to train myself to be a future teacher. Actually I didn't interesting in teaching and at 1st I though of quitting after the 1st week of enrollment. But, there was something that catches my eye and changes my mind, I decided to stay on, well i think everyone know what is happening right since later a lot of things happen, a lot of issues and problem, even hidden agenda.
I will explain it briefly, the thing i mean was i fell in love with a girl and decided to stay so that i can chase her, well in the end, i'm defeated by reality as i'm fat and  unhandsome. At that time, i still deny about the reality of this world, I still believe that inner beauty is better than appearance but slowly as time flow, so does the courage to accept it flow into my soul.
Swiftly, it have come to this moment, October thirteen, on the year of 2012. it has been a year, i'm a different and better man already, i managed to forget the thorn in heart. I have searched for a new flower in my life and i manage to find one suitable but yet the flower melted immediately under my grips. Maybe my grips are too strong and crushed the flower. Well, when the flower crush, so does my heart. it have be crushed into pieces, with nothing left. i always wish for the slice of hope which i knew i will never found, how stubborn am i, how foolish am i for believing in that tiny piece of hope. i was never cut out for this kind of things, there is no flower in my book of life, the pages will always be empty.
Well, that conclude all the things i wanna express for the days, a final remark, when you know the situation is out of hand, it mean its time to let it go once and for all. I'm your todayh saddist talker, Titania.

开与伤之心

我的生活总是在快乐时遇到悲哀, 没有一次有固定的单纯快乐。好想哭但是流出的不是泪, 而是我伤得血淋淋的心血。

人们说爱一个人,会使一个人感到幸福。但是爱总是伤害我,我从没有感受到爱是甜的,只有感受到苦吧了。可能是天意吧, 我将永远无法得到我想珍惜, 渴望去关怀的东西。

看来是时候给自己一个了结了,看来是时后停止期待了因为我的心已经完全的裂了,再也弥补不回了。既然是知道了结果但是还是死都要跳进去。。就算是我蠢吧,不知天高地厚。都没资格还去期待。

透明人

平常的人，平常的生活。
又是美好的一天咯。
有什么东西值的谈呢？
我也不知道哦。
啊，我突然想变成透明。
变透明可有多好啊。
好处有以下：
一）可以变成透明人，世上无几哦，特别！！
二）可以在天气热时不用穿衣服，因为没人看得到你， 爽到！！
三）可以吓人，详细的情节我就不必多说咯，大家心知肚明的。哈哈！！
四）可以在考试时做弊，几爽下！！
五）可以溜进女生宿舍和女友见面！！
六）可以去打你讨厌的人！！
七）可以做不雅的事！！
八）可以做间谍！！
总而言之，好处多到没药救啊。好像变啊，henshin!!!!

孤独

人生真的是一天比一天难受，我觉得有一天我会变成疯人，独自在那儿自言自语。很少讲话也是罪，逗不到人家开心也是罪，什么都是罪。与众不同就要受惩罚，这世界有点太不公平了。算了啦，人都是偏心的，长得好看，会开玩笑，人家就会喜欢你，在乎你。长得不好看的，不会说笑的，人家就会忽略你，讨厌你，说你。可以不要给我曾受这一切吗，我很痛苦。 虽然我每次都对自己说不用紧，但是还是往往会在乎的。
看来最后，我还是一样的孤单，有过的一切就如没有过一切，不要也罢。

废话一团

哈哈哈哈哈，哈哈哈哈哈
废话。
我哦，不大会说废话的。
哈哈哈哈哈，
又是废话。
我很废咯，自己说什么都不懂，
废啊。
好好好，今天即将开始咯，会是好的一天还是坏的一天？
废话，天知地知我哪知。
很多东西发生咯，你觉得我能控制吗？
废话，哪里能控制。
人家讨厌我，我又能控制？
废话，哪里能。
我没idea要和人讲什么有趣的，能怎样？
废话，还能怎样，天生吗。
所以呢，可以说我是废人了。哈哈哈哈。

痛痒

好痛，我就像一只失羽的小鸟, 

明知人间世事无常，但还是难逃人间现实。

痛， 是我无法逃避的人间地狱,

痛，就是我明知但却无法面对的一切。

我晓得我自己是怎样的，我知道我没有天生迷人之福，

更没有人间口语之能，之福。

明知自己在这方面无能，但是还是自投罗网。

大家都说我要求高，但是我只是对自己的感情真心，

你可知你的一句，伤透了我的心，刺透了我的胆。

很多时候，我都在说实话，

但是，人家就以为我在胡言乱语，胡说八道。

人，十之八九都是测面不测心，我也不列外，

列外的人，您在何方？可以陪在我身边吗？

其实，我要的很简单, 两个字, 在乎。

我要的是人们的在乎，因为它会给我带来温暖。

但是人间世事永不流利, 要的越简单, 得到就越难。

六个字, 既来之,则安之。我可以说我做不到。

看来我的命就是如此, 没有好梦,只有一觉进恶梦,

痛也罢，哀也罢，死也罢。